Perfect

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb."Psalm 139:13

I did not believe. But, it is as "they" say it is... he is perfect. The eyes, ears and nose - they are all perfect. Every hair on his head is in just the right place. Watching his lips puts me into a trance and his adorable chin makes me giggle.

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:14

His fingers hold mine so tightly and his toes are an exact mirror of my own. I realize he is only days old, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he smiles and it makes my heart leap with joy.

"My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body." Psalm 139:15

His eyes are a window for me to stare through for hours. His voice is a constant song that inspires me to sing. His sleeping face brings me to a place of utmost peace and calm. His alert times remind me how new and precious each moment of life on earth can be and when his tiny hand touches my skin I realize I have never felt a touch so precious.

"All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
Psalm 139:16

I am overwhelmed with a feeling called love... a kind of love I am certain I have never known before. I cover him with kisses in hopes that he knows the love that surrounds and protects him. A love that will only grow stronger as each second, minute, hour and day comes to be.

"How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them." Psalm 139:17

I believe now! Becoming a mother has allowed me a peek-a-boo glimpse into God's soul. And I make a vow as a daughter, wife, mother, woman and child of God, to never look in the mirror again and see ugly, fat, unsuccessful, poor or weak because I am now certain...certain that when God looks at me and at you, at his creation, He only sees wonderful. He only sees beauty. He only sees precious. He only sees...perfect.

* this was written in the wee hours of the morning a few days after his arrival. It was used for Radiant Church Mother's Day enotes.

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Mr. Renn Jackson Bailey Arrived!

Mr. Renn Jackson Bailey arrived 4 weeks early (surprise to all of us!)Wednesday, April 23, 2008 at 11:00 p.m. via c-section.
With the help of many co-workers I made it to the hospital and Eric arrived shortly after (he had to stop thinking the call to go to the hospital was a joke!). All is great! He is a little guy weighing in at 6 pounds 18 inches. We saw the doctor today and he got the thumbs up! Here is a link to SOME pictures that have been taken there are many more to filter through and get posted. http://www.flickr.com/photos/caret001/sets/72157604781544248/
We are doing great and are so in love!

Love to all!
Eric, Carey and RENN!!!!

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Sooner rather than later...

We learned today via ultrasound that he is definitely breech and has no room for movement. That means he is coming via c-section a week earlier than his due date.
I am working on looking for the positives and not being too sad. Any prayers you want to say regarding that I am thankful for.
The last couple of weeks have been rough. I am still plagued with constant contractions - most likely cause he is breech and now I have an EXTREME pain in my low back at certain times in the day. They say it is a sciatic nerve thing since it goes away when I walk around.
Eric and I have been so busy with all the this and thats.... buy this, paint that, do this, get that... the list seems to be coming to an end. Only a few more "details" to get down.
Exciting to think he will be here in 3 WEEKS!
Sorry, I have been off line for awhile. It has all just been a bit overwhelming.
It will all be worth it the day he gets here! :)
P.S. - We learned today that he has lots of hair on his head! YEAH!!!!

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